bend me and break me..make me strong like you

Sat, 10 Dec 2005 15:52:17 GMT

so....I didn't go to school on Thursday...I felt like sleeping more. so I did =)
I planned on going to school yesterday. but Tiffany goes...lets go see Rent..so like a dumbass I said yes....well it was quite an adventure.I went back at the end of 6th...just in time too. First conversation in school I've had with you in a long time....You make me smile =) I got picked up at the end of lunch and went to the Huntington Mall and BW3s =) which made me really happy cuz its been like two years since I've ate there.

I've put myself in yet another shitty situation with girls. I still talk to Brittany everyday which makes if even harder. The shit she tells me...I mean, yeah I wanna hear it b/c I really hope she means it but then again its like why are you telling me this? I'm sitting here trying to get over you and then you tell me this. ugh. Then there is this other girl...one I know I don't have a chance in hell with yet am still stupid enough to try to chase after her. its not like im using her to get over Brittany or ne thing cuz its not like that at all. i mean yeah I really like her...and I'm pretty sure she knows but not exactly how I feel and it's not like I can tell her and even if I wanted to I never talk to her for long enough online to say ne thing important. oh well doesn't matter...maybe she'll just read this.

I'm really excited for Christmas but then again..I'm not. there is only two things I reallly want and I'm not going to get them...a PSP and YOU..yupp never gonna happen. I doubt it's even gonna be a white Christmas. which is b/s too. I like white christmases =)

so I defintaly have a book report due on Monday and have I started it?? no I havent b/c I wait till the last minute to do EVERYTHING yes...and I have a feelling its not gonna get done...Maybe I should start that. EEEEEEEEEEE

okay enough bitching

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All I want for Christmas is you......

Tue, 06 Dec 2005 01:32:04 GMT

So for all of you who don't know..this is my new journal...the old one just wasn't cuttin it. I know I never updated but I think I'm gonna start again...I miss having something to bitch too...regardless if people read it or not.

School is going okay. I finally finished my 200 point history project on influenza...what joy that was! It doesnt look that bad tho....althought the last 2 sections were mainly copy and paste..i just changed the big words..im not THAT smart lol.

I want to see RENT again REALLLLLY badly..I fell inlove with it. I wish I would have seen the musical...I would like to. I wonder how big of a diffrence it is.

So....there is someone I like...Brittany and I broke up but I'm NOT getting into that...you dont wanna know anyways its to commplicated and not worth getting into any more..whats done is done....but I've like this person since be4 her and I started dating and I guess I never stopped. Shes someone I know I don't stand a chance with..yet untill I get told to fuck off or sumthing I've gotta keep trying. It's what I want for Christmas..I just wanna be happy for more than a short period of time. I wanna be with someone...and hell...only 3 people know I like her...well at least know her name..and I know they wont say shit. I plan on keeping it as much of a secret as possible..yet just know that when I talk about "her" it really is "her".....get it?...oh well....

hope everyone is doing good.

Jess

bend me and break me..make me strong like you

All I want for Christmas is you......